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August 14, 2018 at 7:36 pm | Posted in Death, Grief, Jake, Love | 5 CommentsTags: gratitude, happy birthday, Jake, love
Happy birthday Jake! I am so very thankful that you were born. Your dad and I miss you every day, but some days are just a bit harder.
What kind of teenager would you be? Would you be testing my and your dad’s patience? What would you look like? Would you have had a bar mitzvah?
There are so many questions that will never be answered. However, I do know that your dad and I love you. We miss you today and always.
Happy birthday sweet baby boy. I will look for you in my dreams.
gone but never forgotten
November 17, 2017 at 8:18 am | Posted in Grief, Love | 10 CommentsTags: #WorldPrematurityDay, birthday, childloss, death of a child, happy birthday, life after loss, love, miss you so much
Sawyer,
I miss you every single day but today I miss you extra. Today eight years ago you were born. It is (or should be) your 8th birthday. How do I get through your 8th birthday without you? I am not so sure. I know I did it last year and the year before, so somehow I will get through today as well.
I am wearing purple for World Prematurity Day. You were full term but all of your siblings were premature so I think you would be okay sharing your special day with them. You were born on your scheduled C-section date and we could not wait to meet all 8 lbs of sweet wonderful you!
Wherever you are, I hope you know how much you are loved and missed. As always, I will look for you in my dreams.
“Don’t cry because it is over. Smile because it happened.” Dr. Seuss
November 17, 2016 at 1:52 pm | Posted in life after loss, Love | 7 CommentsTags: #WorldPrematurityDay, Georgia Gives Day, gratitude, happy birthday, hope, life after loss, March of Dimes, not a dark day
Sawyer,
Today is World Prematurity Day so I am wearing purple in memory and in honor of your oldest brother Jake and all the other babies born into this world too soon. Today is Georgia Gives Back day so I just drove food to a shelter and will be making donations in honor of you and your siblings.
Today is also the day that we welcomed you to the world! Today I want to celebrate wonderful little you. Today I am going to read all the congratulations emails we received after you were born because last night I discovered your Dad kept them all (and I have never seen them). Today I will give presents to your brother and sister for your birthday because there do not seem to be any rules on how to celebrate your 7th birthday without you – so, I am trying to make up my own. Today I will try to smile, not to cry (but please forgive me if I do).
Today you gave me the gift of being your mama and for that I am forever grateful to you my sweet Sawyer.
The King & Queen of July’s Birthday (with a side of bittersweet)
July 30, 2013 at 10:08 pm | Posted in Grief, Jake, normal?, twins | 4 CommentsTags: baby loss, bittersweet, child loss, death of a baby, gratitude, happy birthday, Jewish customs, King and Queen of July, life after loss, new not so normal, parenthood, perspective, twins, yahrzeit
A few years ago (not long after they learned to speak) the twins announced that they are the King and Queen of July. It is after all, their birthday month and we (me and Evan) should never forget to plan accordingly. The twins did have a fun birthday. I can not say that they were overjoyed the whole month. I distinctly remember being told I was “making it the worst July ever” on a few occasions after I asked them to clean up their toys, brush their teeth or take a bath. . .
I am forever grateful for our amazing twins. I am so lucky that I am their mom and getting the chance to raise them. Happy, happy birthday to the King and Queen of July!
The bittersweet part of the twins’ birthday was that this year Jake’s yahrzeit fell on the same day. A Yahrzeit is the Hebrew date of the deceased relative’s death according to the Jewish calendar as opposed to the secular calendar. We lit a Yahrzeit candle. We said the mourner’s kaddish. I tried my best not to think about the almost 8-year-old big brother who should have been running around the birthday party. I am so very lucky to be Jake’s mom too.
100!
August 30, 2012 at 9:10 pm | Posted in life after loss, Love, silver lining, Time | 10 CommentsTags: birthday, centenarians, family, grandparents, gratitude, happy, happy birthday, hope, new not so normal, sad days, thoughts, williard scott
If things get better with age, then you are approaching magnificent. –Unknown
August is filled with happy and sad days for me but it always ends with the birthday of my amazing grandfather. He is 100! today!! In my opinion he has not only approached magnificent but passed it by long ago. I am so very lucky to have him in my life.
I submitted the birthday application to have the chance for Williard Scott to wish him a Happy Birthday on the Today Show. Apparently there are a lot of centenarians these days and Williard Scott did not wish him a happy birthday. So, I will . . .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
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