Birthday Wishes

July 30, 2012 at 9:50 pm | Posted in Grief, life lessons, Love, silver lining, twins, why I write | 9 Comments
Tags: , , ,

Happy Birthday!

As I wrote last year on your 4th birthday I am so very thankful for you two.   I am sorry that I did not take you to see your brothers on your birthday.  I just could not this weekend.  I promise that I will very soon.  Then I will take you out for ice cream (thank you Daphne for the brilliant suggestion).

I wish that you had a chance to know your brothers.  I wish that I did not have to explain death to you at such an early age.  I wish that some of your first sentences did not include “don’t cry mama.”

I wish I could find a picture of you from your 3rd birthday.  I will confess to you now that we almost did not have a party for you that year.  After Sawyer died the thought of planning a party was so daunting.  We realized that you no matter how sad we were you 2 deserve happiness (and a birthday party).  We did plan it and if I remember correctly we sent out the invitation the week before.  You both had a great time.  I just wish that 2010 was not such a blur of grief.

I wish that I could have protected you from my dark days.  I wish that you will always know how much sunshine you both bring to me.

I wish that you will continue to look for rainbows where ever you both go and that I can go with you.  And hug you both tightly.  Love you both to the moon and back.


RSS feed for comments on this post. TrackBack URI

  1. Happy birthday sweet Fletcher and Elissa. Here’s to love and laughter always! Xoxo

  2. Happy Birthday to a couple of sweet incredible kiddos! Love and hugs to their amazing mama too!

  3. Happy Birthday! Alyssa and Fletcher! And many, many healthy more!
    Love, Cornelia

  4. Happy Birthday once again! Those little bundles of joy are lucky to have such good parents!

  5. Happy Birthday to Fletcher and Alyssa! Lanie, you are an amazing woman and mom and friend!

  6. Happy Birthday to your beautiful children!! xo

  7. Happy Birthday Fletcher and Alyssa! What a blessing your kiddos are, to so many people. We love seeing them grow and thrive in all your pictures. Many Many blessings to you and your beautiful family.

  8. Happy Birth Day to you! (and the twins)… I think we should all celebrate Moms on children’s birthdays… and Lanie.. .they know they bring sunshine into your life as much as they know the sunshine you bring into theirs.

  9. Thank you all for the birthday wishes (to the twins and to me). xoxo

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Create a free website or blog at
Entries and comments feeds.

%d bloggers like this: