Missing you on Mother’s Day
May 12, 2013 at 9:14 am | Posted in Grief, Jake, Love, Sawyer | 8 CommentsTags: child loss, gratitude, grief, life after loss, mother's day, new not so normal, thoughts
Dear Jake and Sawyer,
There is not a day that I do not think of you both. I know that you are both miracles. I was lucky enough to hold you both even for just a moment. I am thankful for the time that I spent with you. I just wish there were more moments. My arms ache to hold you.
I miss you every day. Some days are just harder. Mother’s Day is one of those days. Although the logical part of me knows that this is just a hallmark holiday. The original creator, Anna Jarvis, herself was even disappointed by how commercialized the day had become.
May 5th was International Bereaved Mother’s Day. I have to confess I try not to think about these days. It is not too hard to do in May. Especially now that your brother and sister are in kindergarten. The end of the year seems to bring extra activities that make it even easier to forget about the date.
I love you both to the moon and back. I will look for you in my dreams.
I know that this day is hard for so many. There are the other mothers in the club whose arms will also ache to hold their children. There are others who are missing their mothers and grandmothers. I send hope and hugs to you all.
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Happy mothers day!!
Comment by Susan— May 12, 2013 #
So sorry for your heartache. Thinking of you. Xo
Comment by Kelcey— May 12, 2013 #
Lanie…here’s to you on Mother’s day. You are a truly special mom. You teach your kiddos (and your friends) about what’s really important. Thanks.
Comment by Amy Johnson— May 13, 2013 #
Sending my thoughts and love to you, a terrific mom and wonderful friend.
Comment by Daphne— May 13, 2013 #
Thinking of you. Sending you hugs.
Comment by Kristen— May 13, 2013 #
Hugs and love on to you–a great mother!
Comment by Eden— May 14, 2013 #
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