April 18, 2017 at 2:18 pm | Posted in life after loss, Love | 4 Comments
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Some days hope is hard to find.  On my running route, I have discovered a few hints that there is always hope.  One time I stumbled upon this sign of hope:

And, on another run I came across this one:

The signs are on telephone poles but that is okay with me.   I will take hope however and wherever I can find it.

On my run the other day, I noticed that one of the signs had been painted.

I like to believe that I can still catch a glimpse of  hope even though it is now harder to find.



Traveling with the Twins

June 30, 2013 at 9:38 pm | Posted in Grief, Jake, life after loss, Sawyer | 6 Comments
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Most of this month we have been away.  The first few weeks were work trips mixed with family and friends.  The last part of the month we were away for fun.  I used to travel all the time.  It is hard to travel with small children but if I am honest with myself there is another reason I like to stick close to home.

I do not like to be away from the cemetery.  I know that Jake and Sawyer are not really there but I still feel a need to go there.  If nothing else to make sure that all is ok.  I no longer go to the cemetery every day but I do not like the idea that I am not able to visit.   I felt better about being away for so long because I knew that others would be there to check on them.

The trips were all good.  There were some meltdowns and a taxi ride where not one but BOTH of the twins got sick.  The taxi driver pulled over each time and we paid for him to get his car cleaned. . . However, we had fun.  It was good to see family and friends.

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I have written here and here that I do not know where exactly Jake and Sawyer are, except that they are in our hearts.  No matter where we travel they come with us.  There were times that the twins collected stones to bring to Jake and Sawyer.  And, there were little signs that I like to believe Jake and Sawyer sent to us.

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