Odd but NOT Ok
September 12, 2013 at 2:26 pm | Posted in Grief, Jake, life after loss, Love, Sawyer, venting | 12 CommentsTags: baby loss, cemetery, child loss, death of a baby, grief, missing bolts, new not so normal, unexplainable
Dream
I am drawn quietly to his grave to check on him,
Just as I’d have been drawn quietly to his crib.
I trim the grass around his marker,
And dream of trimming bangs from his forehead.
I place flowers in his vase,
And dream of placing kisses on his cheek.
I hold his memory dear to my heart,
And dream of holding him in my arms.
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I no longer have any way to physically take care of Jake or Sawyer. The best I can do is going to the cemetery and checking on their shared plot. I know that frequenting a cemetery does not work for some but it is something that I need to do.
Over the last month both Jake and Sawyer’s nameplates have been slightly shifting. I thought maybe the bolts were loose. I shift them back and feel better. Until yesterday.
I could not even shift the plates back. And, where are the bolts?! I do not understand.
I called the cemetery office and immediately broke down into tears trying to explain to the receptionist what I was calling about. Who calls about missing bolts from not just 1 but 2 of their sons’ headstones?! She finally understood me and agreed to send out a maintenance person.
No one can explain what happened to the bolts that should be securing the nameplates to the granite. However, they are both repaired for the moment. We are going to wait and watch to see what happens. I am so not okay with this.
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Wow, Lanie–this is a mystery! I can certainly see why you’d not be okay with this! And they weren’t able to offer up any sort of explanation at all? (No construction in the area?)
Comment by eden— September 12, 2013 #
I would not be OK either.
Comment by Patty— September 12, 2013 #
Lanie – that is so weird and awful. I don’t get it. Xo
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Comment by Kelcey— September 12, 2013 #
How dreadful. I hope it is a one off whatever happened. Xx
Comment by 17hobbitt— September 12, 2013 #
I am so sorry. So wierd too – you guys have had so many issues with those plates.
Comment by Susan FB— September 13, 2013 #
Terrible and unexplainable. Why?
Comment by Daphne— September 13, 2013 #
Dahlin’, you always write so eloquently and right from the heart. I am sorry about the plates moving, and I hear how upset that makes you. I hope you get it figured out. My mom always leaves a lit candle (and sometimes some bourbon 🙂 by where my dad died on the anniversary of his death, and no matter the weather, windy or rainy or calm, the candle stays lit all night. My mom (and I) like to think my dad plays a hand in this. There is so much we do not know or understand.
Comment by Amy Johnson— September 13, 2013 #
I’m so sorry about the plates moving and bolts missing. That is disturbing. Of course you’re not ok with it. Wishing you peace.
Comment by Steph— September 13, 2013 #
How strange, so sorry you are dealing with this, it has to be unsettling. Sending you a hug.
Comment by Jessica— September 17, 2013 #
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