One Day at a Time
August 18, 2013 at 10:22 pm | Posted in Grief, Jake, life after loss, Love | 3 CommentsTags: baby loss, birthday, dark days, death of a baby, hope, Jake, life after loss, new not so normal, perspective, thoughts
Thank you so much for the thoughts and prayers for us and Jake on his birthday.
We are continuing to ride on the August roller coaster of happy and sad days. This weekend had a happy day. Evan‘s birthday. I remember in 2005, Jake was a few days old and I was still in the hospital. The only thing Evan got for his birthday that year was a shower. Life is no longer minute to minute like it was in 2005. However, even today if I think too much about Jake’s birth day and death day, it seems like August is so very dark.
I remind myself not to imagine the 8-year-old Jake. There is no point in grieving over the little boy who never was but somehow I can not stop myself at times. I catch my mind as it wanders to what color his eyes would have been. . .
I remind myself to take it day by day.
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A Mourning Mom 
Thinking of you. I hope and pray that you can feel those both near and far thinking of you and praying for you. Happy Birthday to Evan. All my best.
Comment by Amy Johnson— August 18, 2013 #
As you keep riding the coaster, just make sure you keep your seatbelt on–and you’ll once again, make it to the end of the ride–even though it’s not an easy month. Thinking of you….
Comment by eden pontz— August 19, 2013 #
Your story has touched my broken little heart. Thank you for stopping by my blog today, and thank you for being candid in the telling of your own story. Love to you.
Comment by katiekrongard— August 26, 2013 #