A Mourning Mom

Rancic, Relationships and Reality

In a recent interview Giuliana Rancic told US Weekly “We’re husband and wife, but we’re also best friends, and it’s funny because a lot of people, when they have kids, they put the baby first, and the marriage second.”  Giuliana and her husband Bill went through infertility treatments for years.  She battled breast cancer.  In 2012 they had their son, Edward, with the help of a surrogate.

The Rancics have had a tough road to parenthood.  I do not judge other parents and their decisions.  I believe the balance of marriage and parenthood is difficult.  I understand both sides of the debate which Giuliana’s comments created but I have a confession.

The night that Jake died and the night that Sawyer died I bargained with G-d.  I pleaded that it should be me and not them.  I offered to trade my life for theirs.   I also offered Evan’s life.  I would have switched places with my children without hesitation or any consideration of our marriage.  I think that Evan would have as well.

The pleading and bargaining did not work.  Evan and I are still here.  Sawyer and Jake are not.