November 16, 2014 at 10:54 pm | Posted in Grief, Love | 10 Comments
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Dear Sawyer,
Tomorrow would/should be your 5th birthday. Five years ago tonight we were all anxiously waiting to meet you. Your Nanny and Pop came to take care of your big brother and sister while your daddy and I went to the hospital.

I still cannot believe that you are not here with us.  Some mornings I wake up and hope that it all has just been a horrific nightmare.  However, you are gone and this is our reality.  You are forever frozen at 6 weeks old. There are no new pictures to post. I know that I am so lucky to have the ones that we did take.  I just wish there were more.

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I miss you so much.  Happy birthday sweet Sawyer!  As always, I will look for you in my dreams.



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  1. So, so hard. Love and sympathy to all of you.

  2. Oh Lanie – thinking of you guys and your sweet boy. Lots of love.

  3. Such a precious boy. Sending all my love your way. Julie

  4. I was so glad I got to meet this beautiful child. Thinking of all of you today.

  5. Happy Birthday sweet Sawyer. xoxo

  6. Thinking of you and that beautiful boy today. Sending my love to you

  7. Thinking of you and Evan and Sawyer. Happy Birthday little one. Lots of love.

  8. Missing him and loving you extra today. Thanks for sharing all of these wonderful photos. I always love seeing Sawyer, even if it is only in photographs and memories. Love you.

  9. Sending you lots of love and hugs.

  10. […] round-up (the “orientation” for rising kindergarteners).  Sawyer would be have been 5 in November and he should have been there that day getting a tour of the school he should be […]

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