November 17
November 14, 2012 at 10:38 pm | Posted in Grief, life after loss, Love, normal? | 14 CommentsTags: #WorldPrematurityDay, birthday, child loss, death of a baby, Global Week of Action for child survival, new not so normal, quotes, Sawyer
Sawyer,
It is me again. I keep losing track of days. Your 3rd birthday would/should be in 3 days. November 17th is not only your birthday but it is World Prematurity Day. You were not premature but your big brother Jake was 14 weeks early. In fact, you were 8 lbs and 1 oz and perfect. I know that if you were here you would be okay sharing your birthday with Jake’s cause.
This year is also the first Global Week of Action for child survival. The 13th-20th of November this campaign will try to “bring people together across the globe to raise their voices against the unacceptable number of children dying before their fifth birthday from preventable causes”. I do not know if your cause of death was preventable. I am still hoping to know for sure one day. I hope that where ever you are you know your dad and I would have done anything to protect you. I still cannot believe that I could not save you.
I do not know if I cry because I am weak or strong. I do not care either way. I just cry and miss you. Love you always and forever.
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A Mourning Mom 
What a beautiful picture. Thinking of you during this anniversary time my friend, and thinking of all your beautiful children. Sending lots of love. Amy
Comment by Amy Johnson— November 14, 2012 #
Oh so beautiful!
Comment by Cate— November 15, 2012 #
You don’t have to be strong–just BE. And remember that everyone around you loves you and your family.
Comment by Eden— November 15, 2012 #
http://rememberingmiracles.wordpress.com/2012/11/15/remember-jake/
this is Jake’s post on my blog. Please visit it and share it
Comment by spreaderofawesomeness— November 15, 2012 #
Thinking of you and praying for you this week and always. You do not cry alone. You are one amazing woman. I am so grateful for you.
Comment by Kristen— November 15, 2012 #
a beautiful child – I am so sorry for your loss. You are incredibly strong and brave – I wish you peace and think of you often.
Comment by Donna Tine— November 16, 2012 #
http://rememberingmiracles.wordpress.com/2012/11/16/remember-sawyer/
This is Sawyer’s post on my blog. Please visit it and share it.
Comment by spreaderofawesomeness— November 16, 2012 #
Lanie, I absolutely love what he’s wearing in this picture. I love sock monkeys.
And referring to the quote picture at the top. I think that you’re really, really strong. You laugh and play and have fun with the twins. You tell everyone about Jake and Sawyer. You make sure that the twins know about them, and how their brother’s are still with them and watching them.
When I think of Jake, I think of a mischievous boy, with big, sparkling eyes and a big smile. I think that he knows how to use his little face just right to get out of trouble. When I think of Sawyer, I think of a happy, laghing little boy, who’s always smiling and loving. I think that he would be Jake’s partner in crime, and would laugh when/if they were caught.
Comment by spreaderofawesomeness— November 16, 2012 #
He is gorgeous, and you are a beautiful woman.
Comment by Daphne— November 26, 2012 #
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