dreams & denial

September 12, 2016 at 9:30 pm | Posted in after death?, Death, Grief, Jake, life after loss, Love | 8 Comments
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August, as I have written about in the past, is filled with happy as well as hard days.  This year August started out with our dog, Buddy, dying.  I wrote about how I was in denial about his death and wondered how long I could stay there.

On and off throughout the month I was haunted by a dream where I could not find Jake.  I would try to go back to sleep in hopes that I could go back to the dream and find him.  One weekend I slept as much as possible determined to search for and find Jake in my dreams.  It did not work.  If I had the dream about Jake I always awoke without finding him.

Last night I finally found Jake in my dreams – he was with Buddy.  So, to answer my own question about “how long can I stay in denial?” it seems like the answer is about a month.  I sure do miss them both.

“When you come to the edge of all the light you know and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things will happen: there will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.”   – author unknown



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  1. i love the ending of this dream. how beautiful to find them together.

  2. Wonderful post, Lanie. I often wish I could dream about those I miss, but I never can seem to make it happen.

  3. A great find at the end of the dream – safe and protected with love. Xo

  4. Thank you for sharing your dream and the hope it gives. You are an amazing woman.

  5. Wow – what a powerful dream. And so lovely.

  6. I love that you found them both, and that they were together. I’ve always heard that our dogs find us after we die. I am counting on that. Your dream is my proof. Take care Lanie.

  7. That is a message from the other side – I do believe from Buddy. That little fighter is loving and protecting you guys even from there. xx

  8. Lanie, I just found this blog through facebook. I am sorry about Buddy. I did not know that sweet pup had gone. Glad that he and Jake found each other.

    I will be thinking of you all on your Walk to Remember Jake and Sawyer.
    Hugs to your sweet family!

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