holidays and hope
December 30, 2015 at 10:44 pm | Posted in Anniversaries, Grief, life after loss, Sawyer | 7 CommentsTags: child loss, dark days, death of a baby, holidays, hope, Jewish customs, life after loss, perspective, Sawyer, thoughts
The anniversary of Sawyer’s death (the Jewish yahrzeit and the English date) were both this past week. I know that these anniversaries can be tough for me so I try to keep extra busy. I have been volunteering for an organization called Second Helpings. Restaurants, grocery stores, corporate dining halls, farmers markets and schools with a surplus of food are connected with shelters and food pantries. I signed up as a substitute driver for a few shifts over the holidays. The twins are on vacation from school so they helped too.
It is just basically driving and loading/unloading the food. The twins sat in the car listening to their books on CD while I navigated from the store to the shelter. All was going fine until I realized that the drop off location was around the corner from the Atlanta Medical Examiners Office. After the emergency room this is the building where Sawyer’s body was taken. Evan and I went there to meet with one of the pathologists a few weeks after the autopsy. All my attempts to distract myself failed as soon as I saw that building.
I miss Sawyer on the anniversary of his death, on holidays and every day. I know that this season can be hard for a lot of people. I wish I could make things easier for everyone but since I can not I send you all hope and hugs.
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A Mourning Mom 
Thinking of sawyer and you all. Lots of love.
Comment by Kelcey— December 31, 2015 #
What a beautiful picture of your little angel xx
Comment by mssharonmullins— December 31, 2015 #
Hugs to you as well! Thinking of you.
Comment by Jo— December 31, 2015 #
Thanks for sharing this photo of Sawyer. We are always thinking of you all, but at this time of year, we know it’s especially hard. I love the fact that you continually do such wonderful things for others–channeling a beautiful energy. We’re so glad we had a chance to see you! xoxo
Comment by Eden— December 31, 2015 #
You are such a good mother and have such a sweet heart. Thinking of you always but especially at this difficult time. Love to you & your family, Julie
Comment by Julie Gomric— December 31, 2015 #
Sending hope and hugs to you too!
Comment by Susan FB— January 4, 2016 #
Sending lots of love your way.
Comment by Daphne— January 4, 2016 #