Happy Birthday

November 17, 2010 at 7:18 am | Posted in Grief | 17 Comments
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Today would have been Sawyer’s first birthday.   Or, more accurately it is his first birthday but he is not here to sing to and hug.  I have so many unanswered questions.

  1. Would he have blue or brown eyes?
  2. What would he look like now?
  3. Would he have been walking?
  4. What would have been his first word?
  5. Would he throw his cake on the floor like his brother?  Or, would he dive right into it like his sister?
  6. Why did Sawyer have to leave us so soon?

I will never know.  These and so many other questions will remain unanswered.  

However, I do know that I will always love and miss him.  

Sawyer, somehow I hope you know how much you are loved and missed. 

Happy Birthday sweet baby boy. 


P.S.  I do hope one day the results from the Mayo clinic study will help me to better understand at least medically why Sawyer died. 


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  1. Thought of you all as soon as I woke up this morning. In fact, have had you in my thoughts and prayers especially these last few days. Today is the day you were able to meet this beautiful baby boy, and each one of these next few days are the days you were able to hold him here. Sending you all love….

  2. You all have been in our thoughts and prayers this week. Please know we are here for you.

  3. We are thinking about Sawyer today and wishing him happy birthday. xoxo

  4. Thinking of you and Evan, Alyssa and Fletcher and of course Sawyer and Jake. Love You,


  5. Thinking of all of you today. Happy birthday Sawyer.

  6. Ive been thinking of Sawyer all month. You have so much courage. Your words are beautiful like you and your family.

  7. Happy birthday to your sweet Sawyer.

  8. I had a talk with Jake and Sawyer’s Guardian Angel…She is giving extra hugs and kisses today. They are having a nice Birthday celebration!!
    You’re always in my thoughts and prayers!

  9. I woke up thinking of you and your family. You are in my prayers friend. I love you.

  10. Grandmother, Grandma Sarah & Grandpa Harry, Aunt Sophie & Uncle George, Nanny (the original)& Grandpa Appel, Grandma Bubby & Grandpa Braterman are all holding our beloved boys. Our love surrounds them and will help us move from this day to the next. Our love for them, for you and Evan and the twins grows every day. Please take care of yourself, you are so very important to all of us.

  11. Thinking of you on this difficult day, and sending you all my love and support.

  12. All of you have been on my mind this week! We sending extra thoughts and prayers your way today. Love you . . .Maryanne

  13. We’ve been thinking about Sawyer’s upcoming birthday all week. Now that it’s here, we’re sending special birthday wishes to him, and all of our love to you and Evan and the twins!

  14. Lanie, my prayers, love and support are with you and your family today.

  15. happy birthday to your beautiful boy. And blessings to you. I will hold you and your family in my thoughts and prayers today and always.

  16. Thinking of you my dear friend. Happy Birthday dear Sawyer. Remember…
    “smile, think of me, pray for me. Let my
    name be ever the household word it
    always was. Let it be spoken without
    effect, without the ghost of a shadow
    on it. Life means all that it ever meant.
    It is the same as it ever was; there is
    absolutely unbroken continuity. Why
    should I be out of mind because I am
    out of sight? I am waiting for you, for
    an interval, somewhere very near just
    around the corner…All is well.” -H. Holland
    With all my love to all of you. Amy

  17. Thinking about you on Sawyer’s birthday and every day. Love you.

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